In my heart have to {bitterly hate} become in my 8 year old

I am hate my Father , That in my dream is impossible of my think, my father got {extramarital relations} always scold me, hit me, unhappy nearby take to bully me........... I have already born enough............. long year ago, I am thinking for myself , everybody got a good father but I doesn't have. I to admire everybody got a Good father.................{A Bitterly Hate} I think every body can't to understand me, And doesn't believe me got a rubbish father ! I hope everybody can happy forever , I can try myself to do anything well ...........................................................    I hate father forever , don't have forgive !